I didn’t want to do it, but I have to. I hate doing it, but it’s a must at this point. After 4 years (it will be 4 in August) and the realization that I still have a ton of expenses on the horizon, I have added a “donate” button. It’s there… to the right at the top. See It? If you click on the Flag of Kazakhstan you are directed to pay**pal. So ya, I kinda have a big wall o pride . Always have. I always lived by the mantra, “where there is a will there is a way”. I still believe that. Only thing is, I now believe that way will involve the generosity of others. Oh am still working my ass off and trying to get out there and take as many family portraits as I can. I am still waiting on the nice weather so I can have a big huge giant garage sale and sell anything that I absolutely do not need. But it is going to take a wee bit more than that. I have tried so hard over the last 4 years to not talk or complain too much about money. I always thought that if I did complain, someone would say, “well how do you expect to raise a child if you can’t afford this or this?”. Well I have gone a long way without asking for anything, from anyone. I have sacrificed so much over the past 4 years to pay for this IVF or that IVF or this IUI or that IUI. I spent so much money that it literally makes my stomach turn to think about it. Well, here is am asking for help…. So…. anyway, there it is and if you feel so inclined at any time… it’s there.
Nothing much going on right now on the adoption front. I got a call from the Home Study agency this afternoon saying I needed to send them a few more hundred dollars before they would release some paperwork. Once I get it, I am guessing the early part of next week, then I will gather up all the misc letters and docs. My friend Bonnie is going to notarize everything for free for me (whoot whoot for free stuff!). The only two things she will not be able to do are the 171H since that will not be here when I go see her the weekend of the 7th and also the guardian acceptance letter from my sister and BIL. Since I am single I have to assign a guardian to my child and they in return need to accept that guardianship in a notarized letter.
Well… that is about all. I think stressing over asking for help wore me out. Not to mention I have a cold so I can’t wait to get home and take some Nyquil and fall asleep! On to tomorrow!