By nature I am a pretty organized person. I like to maintain lists of what to do and cross them off as they are done. I have been known to place post its by the computer with dates to follow up or check in. With adoption, there are many things to keep track of. There are documents, contact numbers to obtain said documents, addresses of where to go to pick up documents, expiration dates on documents. I try to keep tabs on all of this. When I started this adoption journey, my agency and I fit like a glove. They gave out a handy flow chart that was colorful and contained time estimates.. all sorts of things an organized list maker like me would love.
In October, when I decided to switch from Kaz to Russia, I began working with a new agency that “merged” with my original agency. It was pretty seamless and it didn’t cost me any additional fees. The new agency is not huge but I do believe they know what they are doing. However, I don’t get the super organized touch base attention to detail that I was used to with my original agency. I am always the one touching base, checking in and following up. I never know if I am being a pest or annoying by doing so. I don’t want to be a pest. I don’t want to be annoying. But I also know I am my only real advocate. If I don’t ask the questions, or follow up and something falls thru the cracks, it affects me only and so I try to touch base and check in every 7-10 days. Sometimes I feel bad about doing so. Sometimes I feel like I am trying to rush something. Sometimes I feel bad for not trusting that they know how to do their job. I know they know what they are doing… but I worry. I worry and I can’t help it.
Last week I called to check in. Instead of talking to my coordinator (she was out) I got to talk to the director of the agency. She is Russian. It was great to talk to her. When I had to turn down my last referral, she hopped on the call and shared her concerns with me. I trust she knows what she is talking about. This past Friday, when I spent roughly 10 min on the phone with her I felt better than ever that when I do get a referral, it will be the right one. Where I still have worry is WHEN.. WHEN WILL THE REFERRAL GET HERE??? Will they be able to work on it while they coordinate home families for the Journey of Hope? Will they be able to obtain a referral since clientele is down and the referrals go to the bigger agencies???
I know this… I have now been on the adoption road for over a year. I guessed I would be near done by now. My guess is I am still a year away from finishing. The thought of that makes me sad. I don’t want to rush, but I am tired of waiting. BLAH
In other news, my weight loss is going FANTASTIC! I am down 15 pounds. I have roughly 40 more to go to be back to my ideal weight where I look and feel fantastic. I already have a ton more energy. I am drinking a lot of water and my skin is better than it has been in years. I need a haircut BAD. But I don’t get one until the week of April 18th. It is going to be my treat for doing so good with my new lifestyle. It really hasn’t been that hard. I mean don’t get me wrong… I daydream of chocolate cake with buttercream frosting or banana cupcakes with cream cheese. But for now, I just need to keep backing away from the sweets and focus on healthy. Soon enough, I will be at a point where I can indulge at times in a piece of sugary heaven. But right now, I just can’t.
So, that is about it… at least for today 🙂 Happy Tuesday!