Just wanted to write down a few of my favorite things. I wanted to document who I am here in January 2012.

1. Italian Cream coffee creamer by International Delights. Yum!

2. The sound of Vera sleeping on the monitor. When I hear her rhythmic breathing it puts me right to sleep.

3. Dr. Pepper. Not diet.

4. Taking pictures of Vera. Currently trying to master the art of iPhone photography.

5. My car. Bought a new/used Tahoe last April and I still smile every day when I get in it.

6. Rocking and singing and cuddling Vera before bed. Best Craigslist purchase was that glider!

7. When my nephew Ryan randomly blurts out.. “Aunt Trace, I love you”

8. When I pick Vera up after work, I walk in and her face lights up, she stops whatever she is doing and runs over to me with a big grin and arms wide open.

9. The idea of giving up cable and just having Hulu plus and Netflix. Now to actually DO IT.

10. Rainy weekends. Supposed to have one this weekend and I can’t wait to go puddle jumping with Vera!

11. Safeway electronic coupons.

12. The sound of Vera laughing when I tickle her.

13. My family. They are simply amazing and loving. They rock.

14. Texts and phone calls from my Godson whose living it up at UCSB! Very proud of him and the good grades he is making!! Managing fun and hard work are important :-)

15. When Vera calls for me. “Momma?” Right here going potty my love! Lol

16. My awesome pinterest wardrobe. Now, to lose 40 lbs and make that wardrobe a reality!

17. Days when my sister is in the office! She comes back from her leave on Feb 7th!!

18. Finding new blogs.

19. Twilight Moon lotion and shower gel.

20. Hearing Vera say a new word/words and associating it correctly. Yesterday we walked outside and she looks up at me and says, “cold outside”. And she was right! It was 30 degrees!!!

Here we are mid January. Let’s talk about Vera shall we? I’ll bullet point this post because making it into paragraphs would make it really long…

1. Vera got her SSN in the mail yesterday! Yay! Now to work on the readoption next month.

2. Vera is an amazing traveler. Every time we have gone somewhere new, she has been amazing on the drive. Not only that, as long as Momma is there she feels safe and you can tell. She plays no problem. Come bedtime, we repeat our home routine and she lays down on the bed and falls right to sleep.

3. Vera loves jewelry and music still. When we return from being away, whether out of town or at my sisters for a couple of says, she runs to her box and immediately puts on all her jewelry :-) She loves to dance and will follow my directions, for example, touch your hard, shake your hands, turn in a circle, stomp your feet…. I see dance in her future!

4. Vera and my niece Ava LOVE to play together. They chase, and play dollhouse, and run and laugh. They are 5 years apart and I wasn’t expecting this so it sure is a wonderful treat!

5. Vera often times wants to spend the entire evening in my arms cuddling and reading stories.

6. Vera loves to visit the park and since we have had zero rain this winter we do this often.

7. Vera is saying a lot of words. Sometimes she puts two together but not often. It’s amazing how quick children pick up language.

8. Vera does not like when any other child is in my arms or lap. This goes for her cousins as well. I am her mommy and my cuddles are hers only :-)

9. Vera is starting to sing the ABC song. She really only says like the first 4 letters and then its just babble. But it sure is cute!

10. Vera still uses both hands for coloring or tracing letters. So I don’t know if she’s a leftie or a rightie yet.

11. Vera is a great helper and listener. When I do laundry she will pick up the fabric sheets and throw them away and she will put the pairs of socks away in her sock drawer :-)

12. Vera enjoys long walks. In Tahoe this weekend she joined us on a little hike and walked it all! Granted we slowed everyone down but hey she did it!

13. Vera now enjoys play dough. She smashes it and we are working on using the cookie cutters for shapes.

14. Vera gets very mad at herself if she is having a hard time doing something. For example, she was stacking her stacking cups…when she got three or four high the fifth might wiggle and it all came crashing down… This makes her upset!

15. Vera has eye hand coordination but I need some activities where we do this more as I know it’s something I don’t do… Any suggestions??

16. We have an indoor pool in town and the pool is heated. They have swim lessons there. We will be doing those in April.

17. Vera loves to look at herself in the mirror. On Monday she discovered her tongue. Sticking out her tongue while looking in the mirror makes her laugh and laugh!!!

18. Vera has finally moved to a size 3 diaper! It’s still big for her but we moved up..yay!

19. Vera is very mothering to her dolls and it’s the cutest thing to watch.

20. Vera will try anything food wise. She has a diverse menu. Her favorite food is fruits for sure!!

We are almost at 4 months home. I feel very connected to Vera. I know she is connected to me as well. She knows I will protect her. If she is ever unsure she will look to me for an ok and a hand hold or a reassuring hug. She often wants me to just hug and rock her. It’s the best feeling in the world. She is eager to learn and loves to laugh. The first day I met vera, she was very scared. The caretakers told me, “just wait til you see her smile, it’s a beautiful smile”. They were right. Every time she smiles and laughs and feels love and fun, I feel happy and blessed.

Here are a few of my favorite pics from the past couple days and a silly Vera video …..

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And a little video

First and foremost. I’m starting to work on my taxes. I read the IRS site about what they need, and they don’t ask for much (odd). I also know they will want much more than they ask for as I have been audited before and I know the details need to be there. I know they go thru anyone claiming this credit by hand and I have read horror stories of months of back and forth. Can other APs PLEASE give me some insight on what you did that seemed to satisfy Uncle Sam’s assistants when processing the adoption tax credit? My plan was to include copies of all receipts in addition to the adoption docs. Anything else???

Ok now on to the day to day stuff……

So far 2012 has been good. Vera and I are in a routine and we both seem to be doing well with it. I get her up about 7:15 (I’m already dressed and ready to go). She goes potty, I get her teeth brushed and face washed then dressed. Head downstairs and she plays a bit or helps me with dishes and cooking breakfast. After that, we eat, maybe look at a book or watch some Baby Einstein and then load up and head out at 8:30. I drop her at my moms at 8:45. I usually hang a second to say goodbye and she sits on my lap. I leave and she says bye, gives kisses and is off playing the day away with my mom and grandmother. Her day there is filled with my mom playing teacher, walks, playing in the yard (the weather has been unusually nice this year) and being loved on. BTW, my mom has been great about anything I ask her to do or not do! I pick Vera up by 4 and then we play, maybe hit a park on the way home, and just enjoy the rest of the evening. Vera’s evening ends at 8:30 and she is so great about it and I am SO lucky!

We are heading to Tahoe again this weekend. I’m excited. My sister and her kids are going as well. Her hubby has to work though so it’s just moms n kids! Should be fun :-) .

Oh so my new little project! This year I resolved to of course be healthier. But also to make memories and enjoy each day. So, I started a photo journal that I plan on making into a table book at year end. Here is link (CLICK HERE). Please feel free to follow along. I’ll make an icon on my sidebar for it as well.

Next post is all on Vera and how she is doing, what she is learning and our (hold our hats) almost 4 months together anniversary!

So my last post was about Christmas and I overloaded you all on photo’s and probably WAY more info than necessary.  So, on this final catch up post, it will be short and sweet :-)

NYE is my friend Julie’s bday and this year she had a little get together with family and close friends.  Julie lives across the street from my sister, so its easy and convenient.  It was a super fun night and party.  Stayed up til Midnight.  Vera didn’t make it.  My sister left with Nyah and Ryan about 10pm, Vera followed shortly after.  I brought her home and Deb offered to watch her so I headed back to the party to consume more alcohol than necessary.  I wasn’t trashed but I wasn’t sober either.  Needless to say on Sunday, New Years, I napped when Vera napped :-)

Vera is well.  I swear she is a sponge.  More so than I have ever seen before.  I have been around kids a lot.  Ava and Ryan, they were never this observant.   Like seriously, if you do something once, she sees it, she will at some point, whether it is one day or two weeks away, she will copy you.  I learned this A) when she copied me putting the chair in front of the fridge to clean on top.  She did the same thing in her little kitchen.  B) when Uncle John thought it was fun to draw a happy face on her hand.. several days later, she tried that on herself.  C) Momma measures Vera’s height on the bathroom door frame.  Two weeks later, she put her back to the wall downstairs and tried to mark where the top of her head was.  D) Momma trimmed her bangs the other day. Then yesterday at my moms, we were putting the crib together and we used scissors to open the box.  Someone found the scissors while watching us put the crib together and was caught mid-cut as she trimmed her bangs up.  Thank God she only got a couple of strands!

That is it for now!  Next post..  My new little project :-)

 

SORRY!  I was trying to activate OLD blog posts that I had hidden prior to the adoption.  I know there is a way to do it without sending out the email notification to people who are followers. Anyway, if you got say 30 emails/posts from me.  Ya that would be cuz I did it wrong!  OOPS!  Oh well.. guess I will just put a link or something… Poop~

Well I promised I would share about our first Christmas together.  So here is a rundown….

Christmas Eve we ran some errands and got some park time in.  Then Vera napped.  I let her sleep a little longer so whe wouldn’t be a bear for the evening of festivities.  At 4ish we headed to my moms house.  We were the first ones there.  Everyone was supposed to arrive at 4 but no one got there until 5.  Once everyone arrived, it was a blast.  We ate, we laughed, we told stories of Christmas past.  Then, about 7:30 the kids were DYING to open gifts, so we went ahead and did that.  Fun Fun.  After that some cafe and then we all headed home.

Christmas morning we woke up at my sisters house.  Us adults got up at about 5:30 and put on some non child approved TV (Hangover 2) until of course the giggles and footsteps of little ones were heard.  Then it was Christmas morning!   There were many gifts and lots of thank you’s.  We made breakfast and played with toys and watched tv.  We were stuffed from breakfast so we never even made dinner!  We ate some pasta leftovers from Christmas Eve!  LOL

Vera and I spent the next day also hanging at my sisters, but then eventually headed home in the evening.  It was a great holiday.  I will never forget it.  I got the best present on September 28th when I got custody of Vera.  Nothing else topped that one, but my new purse, ring, sunglasses, boots and sneakers sure are nice though :-)   Santa brought Vera a little jumpie since she loves to jump so much.  As of right now, the Elmo stuffed animal he brought is much more interesting… maybe in a month or so the jumpie might bring more interest…..

Nonetheless.. here are some pictures of our Christmas….

Well, Miss Vera is very girlie.  Which I find fabulous.  Since we got home, she has always wanted to wear long necklaces and bracelets, etc.  And funny thing is, at the time, I was home with her and wasn’t wearing any of that myself.  She would literally find rosaries around the house and put them on.  If it resembled a necklace or a bracelet, she was wearing it!  I chalk it up to the caregivers in Russia, well at least the ones at her orphanage.  They always had makeup and jewelry on.

Well, for Christmas I got a ring.  It is a symbol of my commitment to Vera.  She will always be my number one priority.  And I wanted a ring to wear and see all the time.  A ring that was unique and beautiful just like her.  Once I get the ring back I will share a picture.  Anyway, the ring was too big and I needed to get it sized.  There is a nice family owned jewelry store downtown.  Vera and I headed there on the 23rd of December.  After deciding on how small to make the ring, I asked if they knew a nice clean place to maybe get Vera’s ears pierced in the future.  You see, Vera has trying to wear my earrings and is very interested in the ones in my ear.  And, with being so girly, I knew she would love it.  Well, they actually did it there.  So, I picked out some plain cz studs and she sat nicely on my lap.  They drew two dots, set up the triggers and BAM done.   Vera was surprised and cried for maybe 10 seconds.  I had a pacifier handy, a piece of chocolate and a mirror ready to go.  She got the paci, the candy and then looked in the mirror and she was fine.  She was SOO happy to see earings in her ears.  She kept saying “earring, earring.  mama earring”.  She lets me clean and turn them without a fuss and is sure to show everyone her ears.  Too Cute!

I know it was just earrings,  but it sure felt like a big mommy moment… I was so proud of her for being so brave and so appreciative.  Christmas was fantastic and I will post about it and share pix in the next day or so.  In the meantime, a picture of my beautiful Russian Princess and her new earrings …..

 

The Christmas season has always been my favorite time of year.  Lots of focus on family and friends.  Acts of kindness and generosity are abundant.  My goal, to be like this all year long.  It isn’t hard with Vera.  She is always my #1 focus.  But being generous with others and making time to be with family and friends is important and I need to do more of it in the new year.

Traditionally, Christmas Eve is my favorite day.  This is the day that we spend with my moms side of the family.  They are the side that is very close and tight knit.  My dad of course will join us.  We will eat, be merry and the kids will open their xmas gift and give their gifts to those there as well.  We will have some cafe after the gifts have been opened and chat before going home and smile over the fun that was had.  I have years and years of memories that revolve around Christmas Eve and all of them make me smile!

I normally spend the night Christmas Eve night at my sisters (which I will do with Vera this year).  Santa will visit all of us there.  We will open Santa gifts, eat a big breakfast and then open up some more.  After that, the kids will play, the adults will put together toys and tinker with their own gifts.  We will watch Christmas movies all day and let the kids out front to play while we sip on some red wine and and the ham heats up.

Now, I have to say that this year, I admit to being even more excited as I have Vera here to share in all the tradition.  I am sure she will love it all and there will be many smiles and laughs had.  I know even some tears as I am just so grateful for her and this life that we are building as a family.

I recieve the 12 days of Christmas devotional and this was todays…

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, And he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

If I didn’t trust, I probably would have given up on motherhood ages ago.  But I believed with all of me that prayers are answered, though not always when we want them.  God gave me the greatest gift this year.  He answered my prayers with Vera.  She was made for me and I for her and He knew that all along.

So, from our House to Yours, we wish you a very Merry Christmas.  May it be filled with love and laughter.  May you be able to count an abundance of blessings in your life and share in the joy of Christmas with the ones you love…..

Love,
Tracey and Vera

Well things have been great and just go go go.  I will back up and give some catch up!  Thanksgiving came and went.  We had about 14 people there.  It was our smallest Thanksgiving in a long time and it was actually quite nice to be able to sit and chat with everyone.  Deb and I prepared most of the food early in the morning so it simply needed to be heated and served.  We used plastic utensils and plates and well..  it all still worked out fine.  Everyone was fed and happy!  Vera and I ended up spending Th and Fri night at Debs.  She was having so much fun hanging with her cousins and I admit.. I was having fun hanging there as well :-)

The following week, on Nov 30th, we headed to Tahoe for 5 days.  My boss has a cabin that he graciously gave us for those days.  Vera and I went along with my sister, her hubby and their kids.  It was so much fun!  The cabin is huge (like 3k sq ft) and it is in a resort community.  There is a playground and a kids club.  There the kids can do arts and crafts, play, color, etc.  Vera did so good.  The 4 hour drive with her was cake.  She was singing and then napped a bit and watched a little sesame street.  During the time there we just hung out as a big family and laughed and played.  She had fun with her cousins and really enjoyed having her momma around all day for 5 days!  It was really a fun trip!

We got back on the 4th and Dec 5th was my 38th birthday.  By far it was the best birthday ever.  Having Vera here with me and being her mom…  Nothing, no gift could be better than that.  She and I celebrated with some pasta and cookies.  We clinked our glasses and I rocked her long after she fell asleep.  Just staring at her and feeling so happy and grateful for the wonderful life I have.

I didn’t do any advertising this holiday season for photo business, but I had several people contact me to do their pictures, so I think I did about 10 families.  It was great because most were repeat clients and very eager to meet Vera.  She is my little photog assist.  She loves it because a lot of the times we are at parks, so we photograph the family and then PLAYTIME.  She loves the slide and this past weekend.  She literally went down the slide no less than 200 times!

So now that you are caught up on the happenings, a little about Vera.  Well she is home now 2.5 months.  She continues to thrive.  She is speaking english words and randomly uses them throughout the day.  We still use Nyet though.  She says it so cute and the whole family actually likes using it so we have converted.. our No is now Nyet.  Its pretty funny.  My niece Ava is very interested in Russian so often times we look up phrases and words.  Anway, back to Vera talking, often times she babbles to herself when she is just playing other times it is when she wants something.  She will even walk up to me and say Mommmma or show me a dog or cat or point out the eyes on her doll etc.  She knows a few phrases , her favorite being “press the button?” which she uses anytime she sees a button.  She has her shapes down and loves to point them out.  Food wise, she will try anything.  She doesn’t necessarily like it but she will try it.  She will let you know if she likes it.  She eats pretty much what I eat.  When I say pretty much, I mean everything except beef and she isn’t fond of carrots that are not mooshed.  She will eat ground beef, but steak or trip tip.  When she has it, it just turns to moosh because she chews and chews and chews never actually getting to swallow it.  Weird.

She loves the lights on the Christmas tree and we will go see Santa next week.  She is still very attached to me.  I am so lucky that we never had a bonding issue.  She still isn’t really thrilled when children try to touch her.  Sometimes they want to hold her hand and say follow me (not Ava and Ryan, she will let them, but say friends kids).  This makes her very nervous and she will always fuss and turn the other way to get away.  She doesn’t go or interact with people she doesn’t know.  If we are with friends she doesn’t know, she won’t let them hold her.  She still only wants momma all the time, even over family she likes (like my sister, my mom, etc).

She will mimick EVERYTHING I do.  If I stand on a chair to clean the top of the fridge, she is finding a stool or box to stand on to do the same in her kitchen.  She still really loves music and dancing.  She loves when I rock her to sleep and sing our special song that I made up.  Her nightime bottle started somewhat robotical (her part, hop in arms lay back open mouth and drink).  But now, it is a much more nurturing hold and filled with her holding my hand or my face or looking deep into my eyes.

She has her two year old moments.  She gets frustrated at a toy or something and throws it and then pouts at it.  Or if she sees something she wants and someone has it, she whines and fusses.  But at this point, things continue to go smooth.  She did discover a pacifier when Nyah was born.  I remember seeing a little boy at the orphanage with one.  I bet they had one and they passed it around because she knew EXACTLY what to do with it.  I wish I had taken Trisha’s advice and brought one to Russia!  As I think back, it always seemed like she was wanting something that I didn’t have.  But she never cried.. sweet baby.  Anyway, we have compromised on the pacifier.  After she finishes her bottle at night I let her have it.  Then I pop it out after she is sound asleep.  She then can have it as a treat when I pick her up from my moms.  She has it for the car ride home and then maybe a little longer.  She does however get it much more often when we are around my sister and the baby.  She sees Nyah and it brings up this need to be a baby so I give in.  She asks for it often, but I simply say it isn’t time for Bobo (the name we use for a paci in our family).  Oh and she is not fond of my holding Nyah.  Once I do, she immediatly stares me down and asks me to pass Nyah to Aunt Deba (what she calls my sister) or will hop in my lap to cuddle too.  Once I do pass Nyah off, Vera then hops in my lap and wants me to hold her like a baby… so I gladly oblige :-)

What else….  Oh she gets cuter and cuter and sweeter and sweeter each day.  Every morning when she wakes up, I go in and sing her our good morning song.  If it is a peepee free diaper (normally it is) we peepee sit and she goes potty.  We go back in her room and we open the blinds and say Good Morning Everyone.  She smiles and I hug and kiss her and she giggles.  Its just amazing that in 2.5 months we have a routine and we are both so happy.  I used to have this space in my heart that was open and empty and ached.  That is gone.  I am complete and so so happy! I know Vera is happy too.  When she gives me kisses, and snuggles her head on my shoulder I feel the love.  She trusts me.  She knows she is safe.  She also does this cute thing.  When we pull in the complex, she will clap her hands like “yay we are home”…. so cute.

Well, since there was SO long between posts, I have LOTS of pictures (I’ll save the videos for the next post)!  Enjoy!

This is Thanksgiving Day

Day After Thanksgiving.  Notice the bow still in the hair?  She played til she literally CRASHED!

This is in Tahoe, the first day.  The snow is old but it was quite chilly outside.  Low/Mid 40′s that day.

Ava playing…

Ryan being a good sport with his broken arm.  Only so much play he can do!

Holding some snow with the cabin in the background

Group Ipad Fun Time

Thinking she is cool stuff with the tree behind her!

Loving on Belle Kitty 

Doing a holiday shoot at my sisters and someone slipped (while sitting mind you) off the stool.  I couldn’t resist capturing that face.
Hugs were given after the taking of this picture.

All dolled up so we can take some pictures so that her likeness can be displayed on fireplace mantles of family members and friends :-)

Cousins!

My Niece Ava (7 years old).

 

Ryan (5 years)

Nyah (6 weeks)

Cute even napping in the car!

Well as I mentioned last week I had to go back to work… I’m working way more than I would like. My boss has said I can take extra time off once it slows down and he is also giving us 4 days in December at his fancy cabin in Tahoe. But, I still have guilt and tonight I boiled over.

Now, I KNOW I’m lucky that I have my mother and grandmother at home to watch Vera while I work. I am so grateful because they love her to bits and pay tons of attention to her. They have even been good to follow my strict instructions on allowable foods and timing, etc. Now clearly Vera is feeling more comfortable with them as she has started napping. Well today at 4 when I went to pick her up….she was still napping. Apparently she napped late. 2:30 is when she fell asleep. I don’t know why… But immediately I was like, “are you kidding?”. And in my head I wanted to scream something like, “why would you let her nap past 3:30.” I may have even said something close to that and I stormed inside and woke her up immediately. Then I was irritated because she was asleep on the couch. I mean its one thing to sometimes fall asleep there, but everyday? I dunno… Im just irked. Nap-time is after lunch. If you lay her down in a bed, and she doesn’t sleep, then she missed her opportunity. Is that too harsh?? I don’t know….

On top of that she wanted to bring every toy under the sun home and I had to keep saying No and that made her cry and that made me feel like … “Great I pick her up and say no and make her cry… Shes gonna hate me picking her up”. I mean these two say YES to everything. So why not like them more….??? Maybe cuz I’m sick with a cold, maybe because work is so stressful or maybe it’s just the overwhelming guilt and worry that she will like them more then me…. But I cried all the way home… Hysterically. I called Debbie and she understood my frustration. I then calmed down and called my mom and explained to her that I need HER to tell Vera no when she wants to take toys that are not ours home. I mean I know grandparents like to say yes to everything and when they aren’t your daycare provider, thats cool… But when they are… They can’t always be the good guy.

Am I over reacting???? Any insight and tips are appreciated. Maybe even a few hugs to remind me that this is normal? I dunno… Why can’t I just win the lotto so I can stay home and enjoy the whole day with her??? I know this…. When I am away from work, I enjoy spending ,my free time with her… Saturday we are going to check out a local farm with a group of old friends and their kiddies. It’s a great feeling, that feeling of being comfortable and like you are a part of something you always dreamt of….

Besides the above, I am doing good as is Vera. She has her terrible two moments, but nothing out of the ordinary. Tonight she was a little fussy but she has a cold too. People are always amazed at how attached she is to me and that makes me feel good, like things are on the right track. We saw the speech therapist and she said Vera is doing good and her being behind is normal for her situation. We will go back in a couple of weeks just to check in.

What else…. That’s really about it… Think I’ll take some nyquil and hit the hay! In the meantime, I will leave you with a picture of my darling daughter. Remember the girl who hated water and the bathroom….well that girl now lays in the bath water pretending to float/swim…. Boy summer is going to be fun!!!! Anyway, a little pic from bath time the other night…..

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